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Need some inspiration . trying to forge a new Career in Human Services .  but did finally get this pic with Mr Taylor  Hanson  last year in Tulsa . #life changer #inspiration . daily bible study 1 Thessalonians 5;15 no one render evil for evil . follow  what is good among you and everyone . Matt . 5;44 Love your enemies  and bless them  those who curse you . 

happy 20th birthday to my Favorite album of all time May 6th, 20:34 My career wouldn't be what is without hanson I want to continue working in business because hanson always has . I want to continue making a difference because hanson has .. etc . Ben had no idea tho that Ill never let him live it down . its a gift that keeps on giving . Did Id think they'd still be performing 20 years later ? maybe not , but I do/did hope . Hope is another thing Hansons music has always brought me . they have been my solace times Ive doubted myself to point of utter sadness and anxiety . Side Note - you Know I have to mention him - yes my favorite musician of all time . the singer that Ive had the pleasure of meeting multiple times and as of this year , finally seeing solo for a whole 58 Glorious minutes . Heres my fave Taylor quote of the day: "That dude on the keyboard was too gorgeous to ignore 😂😍." Couldn't of said it better myself https:/...

Happy 34 birthday Mr Taylor Hanson  March 14th, 12:05 20 years ago my life was changed . he is my idol in the most definite and Sentimental Meaning . but as of this year we are certainly celebrating in every sense of the word - going on MOE tour ( middle of Everywhere ) yes were milking middle of Nowhere ) to Pittsburgh 3rd row Ikes Side 7 and 8 ; and philadelphia for concerts 43 and 44 inSeptember ( my birthday Month ) - or in tays case 44 and 45 . he has inspired the fact I want to be in business , serve the needy in my community and of course sing and play music as a kid . but that hug at BTTI was long time coming . we are opposite personalities - I'm the talker and he's reserved . but this year with the hug he showed me something that was my teen age dream . I wanted be accepted and appreciated by him . now it seems anything is again possible . between him Dr Patton and God I've got angels somewhere . I hope this continues with my current job and the like . Im Gr...

My  First meeting with my doRs counselour is tommorrow to discuss  my plan for action . I dont want to get caught again the broken system of people not hiring me  because im disabled . thats what Im writing my Proposal yet again for a 3rd time in ten years . im taking colleen  on Hanson vacation once again . shes  mentally struggling . I actuallly woke up crying about it this am . you would think if I get that up set about it I wouldnt want to keep striving to get into social work . but  thats exactly  why I want to keep trying  to prove the point - because the disabled and underprivledged are still under served .

its been a over joy the past months watching Justin on tv  Finally . In the past 4 months he's been on tv at least 6 times . I hope this will continue on Forever . He is my friend and Inspiration definitely . when I look back at our careers when I saw him in 2010 we were both at the lowest point . we wondered if any one would ever recognize , out passion , skill , talent and out infinite love for  people . when you have us 2 in  the room chances are we are gabbing to someone about , our work , our interests and of course fave Food . Its really food that found us following each other .   We have  other Interests tho : Justin also had the opportunity to be the host  for a Defining moments blog . These Individuals basically Redefined and Refound themselves during turning Points  in their lives . Justin began with his own story . it again reconfirmed that he is the king of turning a liability into an asset . I feel like the Lukiest Super fan in the world ....

Sometimes God Turns you the Opposite direction . As he will for me August 19th . My Job is ending and back to DORs and job hunting again . tbh I hate it . what I wanted was for my job  to be permanent . I wanted to find a business where finally some one would accept for who  I was . but I have to accept that the offer wasn' t permanent ; instead it was an opportunity to prove my self and Survive on my own . Thus I have . I found parts  of me I didn't know were in me . I was able to function in concert with people who are not disabled  at all  and I was able to  help run a business and earn my own money .To be honest , I never felt like I fully belonged - physically challenged ; usually short statured , ADD ; its all a place I did nothing to deserve or entitle.   however I worked  hard to get there . Hopefully this " turning the tables " is the experience I need for the next step in the journey and find a blessing in defeat  .

This pAst visit with chef Justin didn't go as well as I'd hoped . I didn't say more than shake his hand and " Hi Sir ! " I wish I could have explained to him that he inspired all of this - the opportunity I have to be whomever I want to be ( see Arc blog 5 ) . I don'tknow  why I can't bring myself to do it . The reason I think why is that we will both  get too emotional . Just like the night we first met when I had him sign him and Alton's picture from his food network star finale . That was turning point in my life as is every night I see him . Every visit reaffirms the I can be whom I want , I can do business and promote in any I choose . My dreAm is to promote him some day and give him the James Beard excellence in culinary arts award . I've dreamed about it already sighting cousin Jimmy Robey as the person at my side flying with me and being the most caring assist as maybe mom or dad wouldn't be around to be able to . It's most beautifu...