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ARC Blog 10 Paying attention .  August 22nd, 17:17 Another struggle with my disability is that I sometimes make mistakes with accuracy and paying attention . It is so important when one is expected to be responsible with their work , their family and other responsibilities and commitments . I'm not the first say that modern technology has spoiled us in that computers can spell check , recognize usernames and passwords , lock accounts when login attempts have failed to protect our privacy , and many other frustrations in our everyday life . Ive struggled with this aspect of my disability all my life . I have to make note of everything and keep trying to remember . Repetition is key . If you practice and learn from your mistakes, you will be all right .It is hard to believe that though . One mistake can set a mood for the rest of your day . My new job has put new pressure on me I haven't felt before . I know how important get everything right is to any line of work , but espe

I begin this entry with inspiring advice from my aunt : " Trust in God's plan . We don't always understand at the time why things happen, but Faith sees us through til the day we do. God has a plan for you and it will be revealed according to his schedule, not ours."  My Aunt Patricia always has been so positive an inspiring . Family and friends have always been my shield . Without them, I wouldn't have the physical and emotional support a human being needs to keep going . Faith has always been difficult for me to have . If a person has too much faith and confidence , they are seen as cocky and egotistical ; but if we doubt , we are thought of as weak and negative . The trick is finding the balance between faith, doubt , confidence and fear . I struggle to find that balance every day . I try so hard and then think its not worth it because I've been rejected so many times before . I find that if I keep trying through , I give myself the chance improve . But for

Stuttering  has always been a disability of mine . It's  a part of my cerebral palsy  that  is my inability  to speak clearly . but I've never let this  short - coming stop from talking . I have an extensive mental vocabulary to communicate with others  and I love using huge , complicated words . All  of my school presentations were a challenge , but I didn't use my disability as an excuse to get exempt  from them I simply adapted the presentations to only present for the teacher to make me feel for comfortable  . I even passed college public  speaking , where we were expected to write a speech every week . I never felt afraid  to speak in front of class or in public . I have learned how to ignore the fear of what people will think of me . My most successful were my 3 college Business presentations - Ethics , Management - Senior Cap Stone ,  and New Venture . All of them counted for half my final grade .  This was serious business . My instructors were trying to teach  us  

There's many pieces of advice I'd like to tell to my younger self . First being don't be afraid to be your own person in the shadow of your mom . I spent too much of my life before now in fear of my mom's negativity and disappointment that I forgot to be happy . Only since I turned 30 and started working did I begin to live to be happy . And I'd tell her that the answer no doesn't mean the world is going to end .  The word No is hard to accept . It can demolish our dreams of having a job and being self sufficient ; It can mean we don't get the financial assistance for food, health insurance, and mobility devices we need to improve our health. When we are children , our Parents maybe trying to do what is best for us but saying no. In Samuel 3:13 , God reminds us that word no has the power to give us restraint us and to protect from bad things- like judging and breaking the law .  I've been told no in many situations when I wanted so desperately the answe